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There I stand

So lonely among the happy crowd

There's a voice within me

But I will never speak it out

There I sit

So quiet among the chatterin crowd

There's two voices within me

I seemed to be lost within myself

Alright, by right I shld be doin something productive.. like maybe correcting dmp models or maybe re-designing my flash interface but i think i rather explain everything once and never talk about it again. I am not too sure how you all will feel after reading this but.. be prepared ba. No intention of offending anyone.. really.

Okay, so here i go.

Basically had some sort of 'conflict' (if you call that a conflict) with my gals... kind of over a very small issue. The thing is, we were supposed to go take photos of esplanade n merlion etc. for our flash assign which is due on 30nov. Agreed on goin last week after a series of discussion as everyone had a tight schedule. So yup, main pt. After sch, the 3 grps met up for dmp respectively. The time was ticking away and well, soon it was like... 5plus? So we started questioning if we are still goin for the photo-taking or not. I noe hoho felt very paiseh to keep us waiting therefore she kept asking us to go ahead without her. I reali reali understand how much u all wish to finish abit of dmp since the dateline is reachin. Thus we said we would wait for her grp to finish. Soon yg said that he's staying till 8pm and so li n dor also had to do dmp. I am fine with that too.. i can always keep myself entertained while waiting for u all. Tiff and hy were busy coding and i am sorry i am not of much help. So yup, some time later, we were back to the same qn: are we still going or not. It's really interesting. I mean, hoho kept asking us to go first, but did she see that everyone is as busy with dmp proj as her? Den wad.. am i going alone? So okay honestly, i flared up. I duno if i did scare anyone when i shouted 'den let's not take photos today! who free den go take on other days' sth littad. Maybe i scared tiff.. i knew she was concern why i am so tensed up today. Little slp contributed to my temper. But the main reason is because i dun like pple sayin 'nvm u all go without me' that sort of thing. If want to go, can just tell me to wait.. I reali dun mind waiting. I think hoho was angry coz i said that, think she dun like pple to cancel sth coz of her oso.. i reali din mean to make her feel guilty. I swear.

Okay, so i walked out alone with a reason of 'I go home first, if you all still goin den sms me'. What happened before that was that i asked hoho to come over coz i have sth to show her. However, despite shouting for her several times, she din seem to hear me or sth. Thus i went over to the gals, askin them once again the same qn. I dun have the intention of stressing dem coz li n seklin had dmp tutorial to do, dor, seklin n hoho oso had dmp. They all kept quiet.. I can see that hoho is pissed off by me, while seklin, dor, li din noe wad to do and dare not say a word. So well, instead of stayin and pressurizing them, i choose to go. The thing is that, i din head home. I went jurong west library in search of a book Windows Presentation Foundation Unleashed which i checked on national library's website. One book is in tampinese, the other at jurong west. That's the thing i wanted to show hoho but well, since she's angry with me, i dun think she will bother listening to wad i wanted to say. So i might as well use the time to help them get the book and IF they dun mind goin to take photo like 8pm after their dmp, i shld be able to make it in time. To be frank, on my way there i was really feelin kind of low... but well, i reali hoped i cld help them even if the book was of little help. No matter wad, the book can help them better than i cld (my coding reali cannot make it this time rd). N seriously, regardless of wad reason hy has for not lendin hoho that book, i reali felt helpin them this bit is still within my means. Yup, by the time i got hold of that book, it was already near 7. Made my way back to school onli to realise that both seklin n hoho left. Wanted to pass them the book so that mayb hoho wun be so pissed off by me. In the end still cldn't make it on time. Nvm.

So in conclusion, sorry everyone. I admit i was too harsh and attitude today. Apologise for that.

Sorry hoho for walking out like that. I know u must be thinking 'wad the hell..' I truly understand we are all tied down by dmp. I was onli angry coz i reali hope u wun be so ke qi with us..

Sorry li, dor, seklin, tiff. I can sense ur concern but i just gave little responses.

Sorry and thanks to everyone, anyone who bothered askin how i m and whether i need help or not. I appreciate that alot.

There I am

Wandering among the busy crowd

So empty that i seemed to hear nothing

But the breathing of myself